oh · itchy · inky · fingers

What you want is a sharp, sweet slap to the face

What you want is something hard

Quickly inhaled breath

Short sharp shock to make the lights

Wink and blur, your

Rapidly marbling, watercolour-bled world

And yourself

Dizzy

And one dizzy moment unravelling your clothes

And one giddy moment that felt

Like love.

And plummeting to a sweet dark Earth.

Then

How many minutes

(Hours days weeks months)

Of absence?

Of deafness, dumbness,

Blindness?

(Eight months AWOL).

Then

Thrashing from another sightless

Sleep-stolen night’s sssssweating it out with the

Gluttoness ghosts

One flailing elbow struck against

Unidentified object

In my unwitting orbit

Struck lucky, formed the

Switch to a circuit,

And light

Thrummed

Against my eyelids

Stung soothingly, prised me open

To clap eyes on your eyes, the

Very pigment of an old master’s sky,

The colour of possibilities.

“Wow” you said.

Wow.

You’re a fake and i’m a flake and we’re only air-kiss acquaintances of so little consequence, but still i want your wolf bites down my neck, inky bruises beneath plum skin, and a spring in my step. Inky emblem keepsakes of you on this bathtub white body. Slippery white and as yet unblemished…

I’ve noticed recently that i only ever write about loving, lusting, longing… all those l’s. Is that a bad thing, do you think? Is it better to try and explore each and every thing you possibly can rather than all the little aspects of one specific topic?

Well whether it's good or bad, the main thing is i'm writing again, i even have the littlest seed of an idea for a not-so-short story after reading Breakfast At Tiffany’s so religiously it’s become my Bible (lines from it keep furtively creeping into my head and sticking there and sticking there like animals looking for hibernation.)

Now if only some of these ideas would gel together more substantially….

( EEL )

At the moment all i've got is vague ideas, for example salt that's fallen from a shaker partially obscuring the line "like tasting salt when you expected sugar." For the photographs of lamp-posts i want a surrealistic, distorted effect that i think could be achieved through the fisheye, maybe using long and multiple exposures. After i get my first roll of film developed i guess i'll have more of a feel of how to use the camera.

i realise this piece is very long, but if you do have a moment to read it and any particular images come into your mind, please let me know, it would really help to kick-start some ideas.

Thanks,
K xxx

( A ramble )

i really need to put some of my writing on here, rather than this Dear Diary... nonsense. But i wanted to write this entry so that i can look back and be grateful for days like this. i hope you understand what i mean!

IN OTHER NEWS

Our first Art Coursework of this year is titled "Constructed Identities". So i've chosen to make Matryoshkas. (Russian Dolls)

Dolls will be posted in progress!

Hope you are all having a fantastic end to your week,
K
xxx